I'm finally out of my writing block for now, I'm sure I'm not the only one who finds it super frustrating when you actually have your pictures for a blog post ready but then you can't seem to put two sentences together or even think of a theme! In an ideal world, I would love to have a new post  every week, but I refuse to upload a bunch of waffle or anything that doesn't come from a meaningful place. As much as my blog is for the people, there is also something so therapeutic about writing these posts from myself to myself; it definitely helps me to keep my head above water, so lets keep it organic and free-flowing.
(even if it means a new post every few weeks)

I was a bit sceptical about sharing my L, but fuck it. It's important to be transparent and raw and own every aspect of your life with your chest. I failed my driving test last week. Yes, I took my driving test during that horrendous storm of snow we experienced. Halfway through my test it started snowing and lord knows I panicked and as a result I failed. I was gutted because learning to drive is not cheap, I sacrificed a lot and had to put other goals of mine on hold in order to achieve this one. My theory test ran out on the 1st of March, two days after my test. Yes. I really enjoy living my life under pressure and as a result I now have to revise and retake my theory test, rebook a new set of lessons and another practical test.

You name the emotions I felt them all. I was upset, distraught, disappointed, tired, even hungry, I was vexed. You mean to tell me I now have to give up not just more of my money but more of my time? I told myself that this was now or never, if for some reason I didn't pass I would give up and not attempt it again because it's simply 'long' and I have more important goals to achieve with my time and money. I do not even have plans to drive a car in London right now or the near future, so I will just take it as a sign that it needs to be left and achieve things that make sense in this period of time.

I really don't know who I thought I was fooling. I take after my mum and have a very strong spirit that will not allow me to give up just like that, no matter how much I want to. Once I start something and invest, I will follow it through to the end no matter what obstacle comes my way. Whether I want to accept it or not, it makes sense for me to get over my L, book my theory test ASAP and get back on track as quickly as possible so that everything is still fresh. There is no point in me giving up, only for me to decide to try again later on in life and end up using even MORE TIME and MORE MONEY because I have forgotten some stuff, and it's taking me longer to get the hang of things again.

Basically the point of this blog is learn to fail fast. Hold your L, sleep it off and keep it moving. Please don't dwell on your mistakes, take whatever lesson you must take and try again until you get it right. As harsh as this may sound the world is not going to stop for you to get out of your feelings. And if you allow yourself to get lost in your feelings for extensive periods of time you are only doing yourself. Whilst you are sulking about what went wrong, how life seems to be against you; someone out there is making moves and snatching their life with no intentions of letting anyone or anything stop them. So darlings, fail fast.

Hope you enjoyed this post, let me know in the comments below your own thoughts.
PS. Do you like the 2nd outfit I made from my ASOS midi skirt? Check out the first outfit here!